Saturday, March 19, 2011

Why, Hello There

I have so much to say...

But every time I sit down to write a post, my mind goes blank.

All I can think to say is that I have the most beautiful and perfect daughter in the world.

I'm afraid you're going to get a lot of that.

I would like to tell you about her birth. How she screamed for the first two hours of her life nonstop. How her left collarbone broke during delivery.

I'd like to tell you about her first week home. Her three visits to the pediatrician for jaundice. Her sleeping on her daddy's chest.

I'd like to tell you how I'm doing. How much harder and cooler breastfeeding is than I expected. How much I love being able to type right now with my leg on the compter desk. How much I currently hate how my belly looks.

I would like to tell you what my mental state is like. How there are times when I am completely overwhelmed with amazement. How there are times when I am completely overwhelmed with fear. How last night was the first night since we've been home that I didn't get out of bed every time I woke up to make sure she was still breathing.

There's lots I would like to tell you. For now, please accept these very small bits of info. Hopefully my mind will slow down enough for me to coherently write a post or two or three. For now, know that I am amazed and in love.

9 comments:

  1. aww Julie, It is so great to get an update and know that you are so in love! Take care of yourself. We'll be here when you come back :)

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  2. love this update! so glad that everything is going well! congratulations on your daughter!

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  3. It's amazing that a post full of things you wish you could say... could actually say so much. You just made me tear up. Enjoy every moment!!!

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  4. I'm so happy for you two. It's understandable that your mind is reeling. But thanks for the update!! And yes, that was a good update. Enjoy your new sweet one

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  5. Love, love, love this post! Congratulations Mom! ;)

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  6. Whata great post! So happy for you :) Enjoy your little one.

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  7. It took me awhile before I could sit and write something worthwhile. The baby comes out, but it seems to take some of your brain with you! Oh, and the belly is crazy isn't it? You think all the stuff comes out so it should just go right back to the way it was, but that isn't the case. It will get better, but sadly it is always different.

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  8. you sound just like you should, in awe, tired and happy and in the clouds. I am sure she is the most beautiful daughter in the world. Can't wait to hear all about her.
    take your time, we're here. ;)

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  9. Congratulations! She's gorgeous.

    The hydrogel pads are great, you're lucky they gave you some in the hospital. I got the Lansinoh brand of them at Target-- they're called Soothies. They also have them on Amazon for cheaper. Hope you're all doing well!

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